My to Do list

wow so i slept in today. so as not to feel unproductive on a day when i missed class because of sleep here is my to do list.

1. nice long shower (woot i get to be nakey for a loong time i love nakey)
2. walk to albertsons and buy a great breakfast of fruit and juice.
3. call rachael to say i love her and see if she got my latest pstcard with the hotdog mummy
4. clean my room
5. go to walmart or target to buy a new razor for shavin and such
6. go toalk to teacher see what i missed while i snoozed the morning away
7. homework
8. work at 7ish

just wanted to remind everyone that i have the best girlfriend ever.


so nah nah nah nah nah naaaaah to everyone else!!!!

now that is a sandwich

i am scaring myself lately.

i have been getting angry and self loathing very quickly and i don't really know why and these episodes last for quite a while. i don't have anything that just plain makes me happy. i used to love goin and playing volleyball and Frisbee with my roommate john, but it has become too competitive. i used to just ist and listen to music but most of my "free" time is spent on homework, homework and more flipping homework.

and to put the pickle on the crap sandwich that is my life the last little bit i am missing Rachael sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much.

wow what a sad day i bombed a midterm test with an awesomised 69%

so when i am sulking i like to buy stuff (unhealthy i know but it does the trick)

so here is a list of things i would like to buy but probable won't


A Watch that contains a USB flash drive both practical and super nerdy


A personal podcast center and software so the world can here my mindless ramblings


To complete my survival series i already have how to survive a zombie attack,


IT is a Control Alt Delete reference nerds get it trust me (god love the 3 finger salute)


Who doesn't want an Einstein shirt come on!!!

This shirt contains a device that reads the amount or strength of a wifi signal in the area and displays it by lighting up damn that is hott.



and it is soooo true despite my horrible test score today.


and finally rachael showed me this one oh happy day it is sooo cute



well that is a fun list of fun stuff to by hey the links are the link to buy it for me so if anyone gets all charitable and wants to cheer a fella up don't let me stop you

i love you all either way.

I spend most of my day in fear of other people. so much it can destroy possible friendships.

but with her there was no fear.

and still there is none.

I can hold her anywhere and feel safe where ever we are.






I can remember the first time she touched me. we where sitting across from each other at a booth in her kitchen (yes a booth she had an awesome table) and i felt her hand touch my leg. i can remember feeling strange because i didn't pull away.

ask anyone if touched i will jump away.

her hand felt good and at the time i could not figure out why but i didn't need to. we have touched countless times since and every time feels just as right as the first touch.

this random moment of tenderness is brought to you by my roommate watching "garden state" and me sitting down to watch it half way through

(side note garden state was one of the first movies she ever 'introduced' me to [she fell asleep half way through] thank you for that)