watch it then read my down low blog.

hopeit makes at least a little more sense.

a fun new way to blog

i am going to play a song and just right to the song

try and guess the song

here we go.


what if everything is alright and that is the problem. i get nervous in comfortable situations.

this discussion has to start some where tradition says so.

things i hate

driving, the insides of cars,
talking to old lost friends,
being next in line
walking alone with out headphones

I'm finished with staring people in the eye just to make them feel better.

by the way i feel just fine

everything is ok

things i do when i am nervouse

bight my fingers,
checking the light switches
scratching my palms
doing math problems in my head that give me head aches

things i used to rely on

psychologist and trusted people to tell me who i am.

i have been known to still do that from time to time

some day I'll still be fine the future seems easier

and everything is still ok

sometimes i need a reason to finish a conversation so i make one up,
but lets not get carried away with this process.

i really am just fine

other than i can't sleep.


night night folks see you again soon this is when the guitar fades out.

despite this message my life is pretty great.

i got a person to love and who loves me.
a job i like
somethings to look forward to; Chicago graduation Christmas (not necessarily in that order).
and a good connection with my family.

my new favorite picture of myself

the little things

it is amazing how small things can brighten your whole day. a postcard from Rachael in France came to day and i have bee smiling ever since.

things that make me smile

NoFX "Man I Killed"

When they tightly strap me in, give me lethal injection,
Just a more few minutes to live, no remorse for what I did,
It was for the betterment of man, I gave the utmost sacrifice,
Before more damage could be done I took his life.

There was a split second of silence when the dart punctured the skin,
Beady eyes rolled back in head, the body dropped from the poison,
They could incapacitate me, but could not erase my sneer,
I heard a thousand people screaming, while three billion others cheered,
He was gone, and I would soon be...

Executed by the state, all appeals would be in vain,
I was not criminally insane, in fact, I was found to be,
An otherwise caring and respectable member of society,
A minor threat except for that one that I killed.

As the sedatives take effect, I just smile and close my eyes,
There's a priest kneeling next to me, he asked me if I realized,
I was going straight to hell, and he thought that I should know,
That the man I killed's replacement planned this whole scenario,
And what I did had no significance at all.

lately things that

Make me unhappy

1. lack of contact with Rachael. She is in Europe with Becky and Tess and with limited communicability. I read her blogs and her Google reader sharings but other than that no contact. i have emailed her a few time just saying hello but have got no hello in return i figure her blogs and shares a a hello but I still miss her, more than i thought I would.

2. My nightly bad dreams everything from wrecking my car, to losing a lot of money, to Rachael deciding to leave me, and many more. my nightmares are pretty common place but they usually are left in my slumber but lately i have started waking up quite abruptly from these an are unable to stop thinking about them til my alarm goes off.

3. Work is always stressful when it comes to the 15th time of the month it is payroll time and everyone seems to wait til the last moment to get me stuff than expect me to get it done before 5 pm on the 15th. ugg they have all month to get this stuff done why wait til now.

Make me happy

1. Animaniacs. this is a show i watched growing up they had fun songs that taught me stuff like the country names


the state capitals



and The presidents names



this is a good memory that has made me smile lately

1.Puppy flowers


2. NPR news and podcasts
ever since my tape player went kaputs in my car i have become a big fan of NPR and its shows with shows like all things considered and Car talk they keep me prett entertained with out music.

3. getting paid to do what i like. i have been shooting football games and other events with a camera and or being the audio engineer for these things. and i get about 75-100 dollars for each shoot so i like this work alot i hope my career is filled with this kind of stuff it makes me excited for my career.

4. Added is a great website Ralph Wiggum for president


I found this site while finding the date for the Simpsons season 11 dvd which came out and my cousin bought but i was asked to wait on buying which i am.

more of bryans random internet finds

this guy sings both parts

See more funny videos and funny pictures at CollegeHumor.

Fun links that are my life right now

i am currently the General Manager of this streaming online station D-91 you can listen to it HERE tell me which songs suck and which one rock your socks.

My Girlfriend Rachael is in Europe right now so my link to her is at her blog

I am enjoying this little choose your destiny movie Survive the Outbreak it is like those books as a child if you want to enter the dungeon go to page 132 if you want to leave go to page 145.

This movie Trailer looks kinda kewl. who doesn't a vampire for a girlfriend?

I have recently gotten into the Duck tails once again and watching episodes on you tube


those are just a few links that took up my day today and will be a part of days to come hope you enjoy.