what a week

first off i got to see Rachael ALOT!!!! we went to a food show together which is always fun. i am not totally sure why they are fun but man they are. it could be cause a couple of reasons:

1. I am not really supposed to be there so it is a sneaky treat for me
2. there is lots of fun food for me to sample and then forget about
3. i get to hang out with Rachael * (i put a star by that one)
4. i get to learn more about the restaurant form both Rachael and JC (Rachael's dad)

it could be lots of reasons

second i got to spend the evening with Rachael, Her sis and Her bro watching "Captain Ron"



a past favorite of mine always makes me smile even made Rachael giggle a few times at stuff like this:


and i got to shoot my first promo that i wrote for the pops concert for the Days of 47 staring Sterling Poulson



and last night i went to a Wii party with my friend kent phew it was fun we played mario kart and when i showed up a kid was killing everyone so kent put me in a s a ringer (he told them that i was not a good gamer and had never played this game) hehehe i creamed him 5 games in a row and stopped his horrible trash talking that was annoying everyone.

and then the chalk art festival at the mall brought some unexpected delights this weekend along with a VERY BUSY starbucks.

this one reminded me of a graffiti style i like it alot

this one was just beautiful and i think it was a self portrait

woot woot it is the Indian Jones ahh good memories

this one is pretty and was right below starbucks so i watched it grow

this one was sooo good it looked like a portrait in the sun

can't have an event without Mickey Mouse

this one was very cool the figure was interesting

ahh Japanese style very life like well painting like not like actual waves

Who doesn't want a multi colored polar bear it is sooo emo




this one was cool cause she was doing this on her own with noone watching it is of the sign behind her hanging above the other photographer

holy crap that has to hurt

3 years

last night was fun i got to see friends i haven't seen in 3 years since i left for st. George. Timmy and Kent where my favorite we stayed up til 3 am remembering stories and telling everyone else at Kent's house.

the only soldier left behind last night was that i did not call Rachael like i had planned. i was just so rapped up in Timmy and Kent. I will call her today though.

right now i am trying to get a shift switched on Saturday so i can attend a wedding with Rachael on Saturday. it will be our second wedding together first Hyrum and now her friend lily (goodness i hope that is her name i am horrible with names).

that is all i got right now later my peeps.

kevin smith is not for the kiddies

Kevin smith of "Clerks," "Mallrats," "Chasing Amy," ect.... is coming out with a new movie and i am F*^ki%g exstatic.

Zack and Miri Make a Porno

A good memory

me and Rachael went to the parade of homes and got all our stuff and headed out with only the addresses and are gusto. we found most of the houses we intended to, all the while saying how great a map would be or maybe something in a GPS system. when we finally decided to go ask for a map i was waiting in line to ask a question when i overhead the lady in the front of the line being told how to use her map inside the magazine she had gotten (we also got 2 magazines). to avoid the inevitable embarrassment i took Rachael by the arm and walked away. I told her about the map we had be complaining about not having while having one under our noses. hehe we laughed about this the rest of the day.

really personal stuff here, and long phew how long

i have lots of negative emotions right now most involving jealousy.

first you see i recently sold my motorcycle to my father and watched him drive away with it. i didn't think i would miss it too much but i do a little and something Rachael said made me sad that day but i didn't realize that was it til recentlier. she said she missed the sound of my motorcycle and for a strange reason that hit me a couple of ways neither of which i know she intended them. she would never say anything to hurt me she is so wonderful.

first it reminded me of how much i will miss that sound i really enjoyed the kind of pride that came with it. and secondly i remembered how "sexy" she once said (a while back, when i first got it) i was on it and i didn't want to give that up either. i got really jealous of my father and now john just got a motorcycle today, mitch is fixing his and yoshi (a friend form st. george) just picked his up.

stupid me i will get over it.

i had my motorcycle times i need to grow up and enjoy the adult car i have now the toyota prius, which i do love so very much, but there still is a part of me that wants to ride a motocycle now and again. if you never have you might not understand just how amazing and confident it can make you feel.

The rest of this is kinda personal but that is what blogs and journals are for i guess.

Personal stuff click to read if you want

so me and Rachael have been together for years now. our tentative anniversary of being together is coming up in August i don't think either of us knows and exact date or she does and i am just dumb, but we have actually broken up twice in our relationship. both of which we got back together, and our relationship is stringer because of it, thank goodness for that. she means the world to me, more important than Roman Noodles, popcorn, or any motorcycle combined (anyone who knows me know how big that is). she is on the top of my list, or pyramid (she made me an awesome upside down pyramid once i loved it).

anyhow i digress, during our first time apart she lived in nephi and we where still friends and she told me an old friend of our "zen" was coming to visit and in he had in a flirty way asked to cuddle with her, and this drove me nuts i hated the idea and i became sooo jealous. i hated "Zen" for it. nothing happened between the two of them and that is not the problem but i still for some reason resented "Zen" for this. i have this strong feeling of betrayal towards him and the situation. i know Rachael and i were not together at the time, but i felt really betrayed at the time and it has not gone away.

thankfully Rachael and my relationship is much stronger now i haven't gotten jealous like that since. i love the fact that she has guy and girl friends i have met some of her guy friend in Nephi and in St. George and i was glad she had these friendships. i mean i have female friends and i can't expect her to be cool with that if i am not in return. anyway in a long way i just said i have dealt with my jealousy issues (what little there was) and it is no longer a problem.

i had gotten past this "Zen" or so i thought and never thought about it for a long time, but he contacted me recently and told me he was going to be in SLC (which is where i am for the summer)and wanted to hang out. all the betrayal emotions came back i have these really strong emotions towards him i and fear i don't see him the same way i used to. i want to be his friend and be as close as we were but this stupid betrayal feeling keeps coming back.

the worst part of this is i am sure he has no idea i have never told him.

How do i get back to being friends?

finally this is why i hate being home it always takes me back to that neurotic child fearing all these irrational and unneeded fears. like right now i can't help feeling this blog will destroy my entire world somehow send everything i know into a horrible downward spiral. i have no idea how but that stupid obsessive compulsiveness is taking over again.

fun in almost any site

got to a webiste: lets say NETFLIX and once it has loaded paste this code


javascript:R=0; x1=.1; y1=.05; x2=.25; y2=.24; x3=1.6; y3=.24; x4=300; y4=200; x5=300; y5=200; DI=document.images; DIL=DI.length; function A(){for(i=0; i-DIL; i++){DIS=DI[ i ].style; DIS.position='absolute'; DIS.left=Math.sin(R*x1+i*x2+x3)*x4+x5; DIS.top=Math.cos(R*y1+i*y2+y3)*y4+y5}R++}setInterval('A()',5); void(0);



in the address box up top over the www.netflix thingy watch the screen goes crazy.

it works some other pages too it works really good in google image search. search for a picture say puppies than put the same code in the address box.