i am so self loathing.

Rachael is the best girlfriend i have ever had and is soooo good to me but when i dream i make her mean in my dreams. it doesn't stop there i make my roommate john mean, my parents mean.

this could be a real problem i need to be nicer to myself in my dreams and stop being mean via mockups of people i know in my heads twisted view of the world.

i can't dwell on this too long caus i got to get lots of stuff done today.


PS. Rachael made me feel really good this morning with a love text.


I love that girl.