Alone in the crowd

I went to the Japanese Festival in downtown Salt Lake this Saturday. I was going to go with some pals but through different circumstances I missed them all. It was ok though I still had a good time.

I took lots of photos you can see my two photo galleries here (the cosplay one) and here (the rest of the fest) . on the second gallery my photos start at #32.

While I was walking through the crowd with my headphones I had a funny thought. With as anti social I can be silent under the headphones it is amazing that i have friends...

so here is a thank you to all those who have broken the music barrier and gotten to know me. you all rock.

great night with an EX (seems to be the theme of my life)

Me and Kit got together tonight to go watch a movie "Kick Ass" and it did just that. Great movie nice tightrope walk between superhero homage and parody. Despite the good movie the highlight of the night for me was the return of the old Bryan.

I was in fine form tonight. I said "low hanging nut-sack," "titty fuck," "blowjob," among many other possibly offensive things in plain public. I also explained why a hand-job is a great payment for a movie ticket to my elderly ticket saleslady (hey she asked and laughed afterwards so get over it).

why is this a good thing? some of you new to the world of Bryan might be asking, but those elders to my ways remember this as the old Bryan. A sexual man not afraid of offending (with good taste of knowing when not to take it to this in certain situations).

For some reason I have been suppressing this part of my personality. I have been sooo tame. I didn't realized how much I missed this part of me. Thanks to Kit for being the Ginnie pig for me.

A Day to Remember

If and when I leave Utah for good yesterday will one of the days I will think of when I reminisce about my time in the LDS State.

Good lunch with Good company, wonderful utah only weather, communicating with old friends and a relaxing end to the day in a hot tub people watching.

I don't know if I told a lot of people but Rachael and I's relationship have transitioned into friendship, but if I haven't here is your update (read above). Today Rachael and I met for a lunch and to give each other a few things we still had of the others. I arrived early as I always do and when I pulled up I parked near her car. She was even earlier than me. suddenly I got a huge lump in my throat and instantly my midn began rushing through all the negative things that could happen and the wheel of misfortune came to rest on the idea that she might have found a new boy and she brought him to this lunch. Now anyone who knows Rachael knows she wouldn't do something like this, but at the same time anyone who knows me knows that I rush to the most negative of circumstances and fixate on how this is going to go.

This did help me come to the realization that no matter how OK I am with the break-up I will still fill a little remorse once she moves on, which inevitably she will. I have no delusions about this. I think this is a normal reaction. It is difficult to think that there is someone who will be better for someone you care so much about. When it comes to that moment I know we will both handle it with maturity and care for each other. It will just show how much we can care about each other's feelings still. So I hope Rachael find someone that will make her happy forever, and the same for me, I just hope that we will be honest with each other and remain a part of each other's lives.

(funny note I have never even thought about me moving on and if that will effect her I guess that is a little selfish, but I really just have not even began to think about any future relationships)

This is the first shitty thing I have notice about being single is that I now seem to notice how girls react to me in public again. That is a nice thing about a relationship is that you always know that people you might be attracted to opinions don't mean squat compared to the person you are relationing.

After I went through all the worst case scenarios I noticed Rachael's old and her sister's new car next to hers and figured she came early to go shopping with her sister and we would all go to lunch, and that is a very much more Rachael thing to do. I can't count the number of meals I ate with Rachael and her sisters/brother.

I was smiling really big on the drive home from lunch partially because of the delicious meal form The old spaghetti factory, partially from how good the meal went, and a large part of this was the beautiful weather Utah had this day.

It is April and my front lawn still has snow waiting to melt on it. Lately Utah's weather has been horrible. Tooele received over a foot and a half of snow in the past 4 days and has been below freezing for most of the last week. yesterday it was warm sunny and blue skies.

This beautiful weather along with the white and black mountain backdrop made for some breath taking scenery.

The scenery was complimented perfectly by reconnecting with some friends from St. George. Take a day or two to not rely on social networks to update you on old friends and let them tell you in voice how they are doing. these conversations can be soo refreshing.

Finally my day ending with me soaking in a hot tub relaxing tension out of muscles. I had just finished my first ever attempt at a Breast stroke and butterfly swimming technique. An attempt so comical that if Gold's Gym's security cams for that hour ever got out it would be an instant viral video and I would be forever known as the "Pool Seizure Guy."

The heat form the hot tub was the perfect thing to release not only the tension from the hour long convulsion fit I had just performed in the pool, but also for everything else that was melting away (mentally and physically).

So thank you to all those who contributed to yesterdays fine memories. I need to go back to the fetal position as my stomach is currently spasming from the first time use of the muscle required to swim the way I would have liked to yesterday.

My own personal Gallery

I gave teh web guys at work my Photos from the 2010 Tattoo Convetion to work and they made a gallery for them feel free to browse em HERE.

cognoscor ego sum (I am known therefor I am) Part #1

For no reason at all here is a list of musicians I could love simply for there voice (all though they are all amazing musicians otherwise).

1. Leonard Cohen

Here is a great example of how his voice can create a mood. This is his song "Everybody Knows" and his deep gritty voice defines the depressing message of this song.



(other note he wrote the original version of the "hallelujah")



2. Tricky

Incase you are among the large percentage of people who have never heard Tricky let be the first to welcome to the other side of the road. Even if you never enjoy Trip Hop (a genre of music invented by Tricky and Goldie) you can't deny that his voice (which is not changed electronically) is mesmerizing.





3. Bob Dylan

Don't think I could make this list without mentioning Bob Freakin Dylan. His voice is almost as famous as he is. The music world would be unrecognizable without the influence of Dylans voice. Just imagine how bad this would sound sung by "Brittney Spears" as a matter of fact don't. Save yourself the pain.



4. Johnny Cash

This one is kinda personal. My voice dropped at the ripe age of 8. Needless to say I was pretty embarrassed being the only 8 year old with a voice deeper than his fathers, but my father used to sing Johnny cash with me to make me feel better about my voice (which by the way wasn't as bad as I felt it was the mind). It helped. So, this one goes out to my dad. he spent a good chunk of my life making me feel ok about being Bryan. This is just 1 example.



5. Nina Simone

Here is the 1st lady on the list. I can't really remember a time when I haven't heard Nina's voice. I must thank my family for bringing an abundance of influence into my life and allowing me to choose for myself which ones I wanted to follow. This is one of Ms. Simones songs that has always felt right to me. For one of the few things I want is to be understood.



6. Elliot Smith

There are too many amazing songs by E.S. to post em all. His imperfectly toned voice is the perfect fit for the beautifully painful lyrics he filled his songs with. With every word you could hear his pain and feel a little better knowing you are not alone in yours. I know this is a bit sappy but the next time you are sad just listen to E.S. and you will understand.





this is just part one of this blog stay tuned for the rest of my choices.

my time in st. george wanes

This is the view of the moon from my bed last night. my window gave me three moons at the same time.




Here is someones lost photo that I found on my walk with my puppy "Nibler"




and for no other reason my puppy looking cute.


Sneezing
and Stretching

holy crazy weather Batman

we had a lightning storm with nearly 1,000 lightning strikes. so I set up my camera and got a few strikes.