IPOD on random can make or break your day

Weezer's cover of "The Weight" by the The Band came on my IPOD by random and it made my morning sooo much better.



have any experiences that are similar of Random making or breaking your day?

today i treated myself

with one of these:

trying to blog more often

so if you want to hear the station i run here is the link to listen over the interweb thingy.

D-91 Radio

the luxor vegas trip.

for valentine's day Rachael and I went to Vegas for two nights. Vegas is a pretty common trip for us but it is just so close and such a great place to visit.

we stayed at the Luxor hotel and got to stay inside the pyramid. (i personally had no idea that there were even rooms outside of the pyramid but Rachael showed me to second tower so i guess it was an added bonus)

Here is a picture of the view from just outside our room on the inside.










pretty frightening and dizziefying.















here is the view from the other side otherwise known as the outside.

it is hard to tell but the window is slanted. both Rachael and I hit our head on it while trying to see farther down outside the window.









We didn't do much it was a pretty lazy trip to Vegas. lazy trips can be nice.

this is Rachael lying in one of the two beds we had in our room.

we slept on each of them one per night.









Lamby guarded the door some times (or maybe just the last little bit.)

i like this pic it looks like lamby is trying to open the door.












that is a summary of the trip to Vegas. i have noticed that i only have been blogging lately after a trip to see or with Rachael so i need to blog more often sorry i will get on that.

my weekend

It was a usual weekend in Nephi except nothing was usual.

it was Michael, Rachael's brother, and his fiance's wedding so everything had to be perfect. EVERYTHING we spent at least 4 hours hanging drapes yep i said hanging drapes and we could still find imperfections.






i got bored half way through and took pictures of my feet.




Rachael got bored too and took pictures of me testing out my new camera





in return i took a picture or 2 of her making a very typical Rachael face:





in the end the wedding seemed to go ok. everyone seemed to relax shortly afterward and the feeling was nice.

It was a short visit I left on Sunday but before i left Rachael performed an I-health treatment on me i found out i was an Earth which probably means nothing to most folks but means a lot to her and her family. i will learn more about it too.

me and her dad talked about stuff that happened in the past with me and for the first time in a long time i had memories about it.





from here on out it gets reaallly honest so be prepared.

i was lying in bed after my session and i had very distinct memories about the past incidents not just memories but i remembered things like how we (me and the girl when i was young i won't go into details about this) got into the sexual part of the friendship/babysitership side of the relationship. word for word detail. i even remembered how everything felt. i was a little embarrassed because it felt arousing and kind of exciting, but nothing gross just mentally i felt similar things that i was feeling at the original time. it felt good to think about this it made the incident more real, not just a story i tell people to help explain my obsessions. i remembered how she felt how i felt it was a very real experience but it felt good to experience it again. i don't know how to explain it but i feel just a little bit better about the whole experience knowing that i have some control over it even if that control is just the ability to remember it.

i don't expect anyone to understand just know that i feel ok about remembering it. enough of the serious stuff i had a very fun trip up north. me and Rachael had a good chuckle at one of her cousins referring to herself as a "fluffer" on a photo shoot she meant dress fluffer though. hehe

i also got to meet her old kinda friend blaine and i say her actual friend Linlee (i apologize but i have never spelled that name before).

all in all a good weekend in the little town of Nephi

some things i learned about love

While up in Nephi for Christmas i learned a few things about that crazy little word called love:

1. how Rachael sees the word: if i understood right she saw that word used way too much as a kid from her family without as she put it "really meaning it," (ie.. love yah) and so she feels that the word should only be used when she truly feels it at that moment. it is not that she doesn't always love me she just feels an unspoken love is just as strong or stronger.

2. how i see the word: i rarely heard that word in my house an in the little times that it is used by my family is for reassurance that everything will be OK and i still love you even through the stumbles. so i like to hear it a lot more than most people cause if i don't hear it i get to my worrying ways and begin to thing something is wrong.

3. how it can make things worse: because of the aforementioned view of mine when Rachael is feeling down i feel a need to tell her that i love her to reassure. i think i am helping when in reality i am probably just reminding her of how the word can be thrown around and help nothing. so i am learning to tell her i love her by leaning up against her. and staying near her.

4. how Rachael shows it without saying it: i said this before but she holds my leg under the table and how good that makes me feel, but she does other things too. she apologizes for being angry when she does not need to, she thins of ways for both of us to get the blanket coverage we both want. she worries how much I like her gifts (she is a very good gift giver and i have yet to like any so far). these are just a few example of how she shows her love without having to say it.

fond memories of early comedic genius Alec Baldwin

so i forgot how completely hilarious this is for all those who love alec baldwin this is some of his early comedy entitled Schwetty Weiner